Brock Turnerโs rape victim shocked the world with her horrifying and articulate account of the impact his actions will have on the rest of her life. Now sheโs written another equally powerful essay addressing his short, three month jail sentence.
The essay has been published in Glamour as part of her nomination as one of Glamourโs Women Of The Year. Her first court statement was praised by editor-in-chief Cindi Leive as changing how America sees the experience of sexual assault survivors.
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In this new essay, she addresses the impact she has had so far, and how she reacted to her attackerโs short sentence.
โAfter the trial I was relieved thinking the hardest part was over, and all that was left was the sentencing,โ she wrote.
โI was excited to finally be given a chance to read my statement and declare, I am here. I am not that floppy thing you found behind the garbage,โ she wrote.
โI yelled half of my statement. So when it was quickly announced that heโd be receiving six months, I was struck silent. Immediately I felt embarrassed for trying, for being led to believe I had any influence. The violation of my body and my being added up to a few months out of his summer.
โThe judge would release him back to his life, back to the 40 people who had written him letters from Ohio. I began to panic; I thought, this canโt be the best case ยฌ scenario. If this case was meant to set the bar, the bar had been set on the floor.โ
After the disappointing result of the court case, the victim experienced some trolls online, including one commenter who told her she โwasnโt pretty enoughโ to be raped. While she ignored this stupidity, one comment did get to herโฆ
โIn the very beginning of it all in 2015, one comment managed to lodge harmfully inside me: Sad. I hope my daughter never ends up like her.
โI absorbed that statement. Ends up. As if we end somewhere, as if what was done to me marked the completion of my story. Instead of being a role model to be looked up to, I was a sad example to learn from, a story that caused you to shield your daughterโs eyes and shake your heads with pity. But when my letter was published, no one turned away. No one said Iโd rather not look, itโs too much, or too sad. Everyone pushed through the hard parts, saw me fully to the end, and embraced every feeling.โ
She ended her piece with a powerful new reflection on this comment.
โI am learning to say, I hope you end up like me, meaning, I hope you end up like me strong. I hope you end up like me proud of who Iโm becoming. I hope you donโt โend up,โ I hope you keep going. And I hope you grow up knowing that the world will no longer stand for this. Victims are not victims, not some fragile, sorrowful aftermath. Victims are survivors, and survivors are going to be doing a hell of a lot more than surviving.โ
Read the full victim statement here.