Kim Kardashian has opened up to her sisters about the difficult pressures of surrogacy. Despite Kim’s baby news being public for some time, it’s only now making its way onto Keeping Up With The Kardashians.
On the most recent episode of KUWTK, the 36-year-old revealed to Kourtney and (pregnant) Khloe what she really thinks about it all while talking to her sisters.
“Getting a surrogate and finding someone that you really trust really is so much more for difficult of a situation than you could really imagine,” Kim explained.
“You have to like make sure that their lifestyle is healthy and they have to go through psychological testing, and it was maybe a year before we finalized our current situation. But I think everything happens for a reason, because the surrogate that I really loved got approved and she is such a nice person, like she’s so easy to talk to and she’s the perfect fit for us, but we have to decide quickly, are we really going to go through with this or are we gonna wait until we feel more prepared.”
Kim also made a heartbreaking revelation about ‘losing’ and embryo during IVF. Kim told her sister Khloé that there was only a 60 percent chance the embryo would take, which was something she was afraid of happening.
“Before Kimberly got pregnant with Saint, she had an embryo implanted into her and that embryo did not take,” Khloé later explained. “So Kim is super nervous and anxious during this waiting period. Of course, she wants to know: Is she or is she not having another baby?”
Despite the difficulties, at the end of the day, Kim felt grateful.
“I’m seriously so grateful for that and that someone is so selfless and kind to do this, and I definitely want to keep it private,” she said. “I don’t want people to find my surrogate. Like I don’t want them to harass her. She doesn’t know how to handle stuff like that. This isn’t her world.”
This article originally appeared on InStyle.